Thursday, March 31, 2011

Allah memberikan kita sesuatu yang lebih baik dari sebelumnya.

Assalamualaikum.

2 hari lepas telah berlaku detik2 menyedihkan dalam diri aku. sebenarnya xde lah sedih sangat sebab aku mmg dari kecil belajar cara2 redha dan bersyukur.
so semasa ex aku mintak clash aku just terfikir bende bende ni:

1. aku xlayak kerana dia ingin lelaki yg hampir kepada kesempurnaan.
2. percintaan jarak jauh yang memerlukan kepercayaan dan kesetiaan yg tidak dipatuhi.
3. terburu2 untuk mendapatkan kebahagian.
4. tidak menghargai yang sedikit sebaliknya mencari yang lebih banyak.
5. cinta hanya kerana ingin mengisi kesunyian.

ok.. aku dah redha dengan apa yg berlaku walaupun aku terasa aku sedikit terluka.. yelah. aku seorang lelaki yang mempunyai ego tetapi aku telah meletakkan ego aku ke paras yang paling bawah...

doa aku untuk dia semoga bakal pakwe dia dekat2, semoga dia bahagia, x sunyi dan menghargai apa yang ada disisi.

live ur life well.. semoga awak berbahagia.. doakan kebahagiaan saya,

Monday, March 28, 2011

OUCHHHH... thts really hurts.

for the first time ever in a relationship, my hearts bleed this much..
i've to cross a smile over my face infront of my friends while bloods drop from my heart.
this deep scar i really dont think it will heal for the mean time.
i dont think that i still can to stand up straight and pretending nothing happen.
this give me so much pain.
my heartbeat increase to the limit where i think the blood pressure gonna burst out through my brain..

i really put my trust on you but it do broken.
i dont know if you feel it or not.
coz i never give a damn to you.
i never go hang out with a girls like you did coz ill find it hurt when it happen to me.
you should keep ur words even you have to get cut ur throat.
i do gone for a while and i just think of you on that time.
where is loyalty??
can u describe what is loyalty?

i sacrifice my thought just to get to know you.
i sacrifice my ego just to make u happy.
and two days im gone without words you did to me this much.
im doing my only one hobby..
you know what. i really dont have money for this week...
how much im suffer to hold myself just to eat bread while im hungry
i've to put myself such a low just to beg some money.
and u did scarred my heart.

just becoz u feel lonely without anyone including me.
just because u think of urself.
urself are more important than this damn relation.
you really dont think about me.
am i a person to you?
ist okay if im gone and u didnt mad at me?
are you my girlfriend?
why did u lie to me?
why did u go out to have ur own happiness?
what am i to you?
ohhhh this scar give me so much pain and stress of thinking.

a boyfriend will get mad if u only talk with other guy..
coz its our instinct
to protect what ours
to hold our thing
and what u did to me really make my thought of u changed.
i really mean it. even ill look like nothing happen, like i forgot all the thing, like its just a wind blows.
i really hurts right now....
and what i really dissapointed is you said it before that u will never go out with that damn scooter boy..... and what u did. u broke ur words..
u said its okay and nothing happen. what happened is u did go out with that scoot guy and its really not ok.!!

im going to give u more chance coz i know what a person
person will never hold their words. they careless, they are selfish.
but i just have to put more trust on you. coz i do love you.
sorry for being a lack boyfriend for you..



some quotes...
I would prefer even to fail with honor than to win by cheating

The first and worst of all frauds is to cheat one's self. All sin is easy after that.

You are my ground and you are my rainbow.
You are my butterfly and you are my ecstasy.
You are the start of my journeys and always my destination.
You are my home - the place to which I always return.

im sorry that i cant change u from making my heart hurts.


sincere,
apekchan